It does not subject what your history is, because wherever that is leading, is way beyond the notion of a “standard life” to something that is many extraordinary, many delightful, and unspeakable.

You will really open and think, What would it be like to watch the times distribute without any sense of directing or planning such a thing? What might it resemble if I were not trying to plan my life a course in miracles predicated on past understanding, programming, and conditioning.

Ahead in to that beautiful experience means that you've in the future in to “the zone” with the Course—to get therefore serious and be so committed with the exercise that, just like a pianist or violinist, you're not considering when you are out “on the stage.” You are used as an instrument. You are just in the zone.

Being in the zone suggests that you will be being done through, sung through, smiled through. It is an involuntary flow and motion if you are arranged with the Spirit. You will have an event that may end your questioning, an event of great joy.