Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery from Jhonny's blog


I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.


Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing so for the wrong reason a course in miracles; as an easy way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.


Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.


That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I'd said that I felt regret for.


Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I'd in visiting the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere using its residents'reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.


This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.


You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.


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